Trevor snorted. “Kemp, do
you really think you could have hidden from Khalid?”
“He didn’t find me while I
was gone. He didn’t come after me then.”
“Agreed, he didn’t. But why
would he bother when he knew you’d come searching for Owen as soon as you
could?”
“And because I did, Owen is
dead. That makes it my fault. If I’d…I should have…” Kemp’s words and the sigh
that followed were filled with pain and anguish.
Trevor gripped Kemp’s arms
tightly, giving him a hard shake to get his full attention. “You can beat
yourself up over what happened, hide away in some dark corner of your mind and
just exist in this world. Or you can decide to do whatever it takes to make
certain the same thing doesn’t happen to someone else.” When Kemp opened his
mouth to protest Trevor overrode him. “You don’t have to make that decision
right now. As a matter of fact you’re not capable of doing that at the moment.
First you have to let go of your grief. And kid that ain’t happening as long as
you sit here having a pity party for yourself.”
“I am not…”
“Oh yeah? Bet me. Right now
you’re being a whiny little brat saying ‘Why me?’ like you’re the only one
affected by what happened.”
“Fuck you,” Kemp growled.
“I’m not doing that, I’m just…it was my fault…and…”
“Yeah, that’s right; it was
all your fault that a bad-ass vampyre decided to go after your father and used
innocents to try to get to him. Give me a break kid. If you’re to blame for
anything, it’s that you didn’t learn to use your powers when they first
surfaced. You are going to be more powerful than any dhampir I’ve ever met and
that includes me.”
“If I had, could it have
helped?” Kemp asked, almost afraid of what Trevor would reply.
“Probably not. Owen was
already destroyed by the time we found him. Even if you were as good at what we
do as I am there was no saving him. And before you start thinking there could
have been a different ending if you’d stayed in the city and Khalid got you
instead, the operative words in what I said were that you’re ‘going to be’ more
powerful than any dhampir I know of. Right now Khalid would have still chewed
you up and spit you out. It took three of us to deal with him. He was that
powerful. Well,” he smiled at Kemp, “four if you count the fact that you were a
great distraction when we needed it, even if you didn’t intend to be.”
Suddenly it all became more
than Kemp could handle. Tears welled in his eyes, flowing down his face as he
began to sob. Tentatively Trevor pulled him close, rocking him gently. “I won’t
say it’s all right,” he murmured, “but it will get better in time. There will
always be an ache in your heart when you think of him. If there wasn’t, then
what you felt wasn’t really love and I believe you did love him. As cliché as
it sounds right now you have to remember the good times and bury the bad deep
in your mind. Don’t forget them or you won’t have learned anything from all of
this. But do not let them rule your life.”
“I’ll try, Trev,” Kemp said
mournfully, wiping away his tears. “I will
try.”